~ QUE SERA SERA - WHATEVER WILL BE, WILL

Remember the song by Doris Day???

Que Sera, Sera,

Whatever will be, will be

The future's not ours, to see

Que Sera, Sera

What will be, will be.

Yes! Our future bukan kita yang tentukan

Segalanya ketentuan Tuhan

But harus ada usaha untuk mencorakkan masa depan...

1 week at Sabah

I has forgotten all my sadness

The love story became calm down

And my heart also become normal

But not a totally normal

But I cant lie my heart

For all 1 week I never miss him

It's lie!

I miss him but not for all the time

It's maybe becoz I really enjoy the holiday with family

Oh...for my 2nd day at Sabah

He just SMS me

To remind for not forget to buy a sourvenir

For him and her

And surprisely, I can accept it

And just answer yes to him

No jealous at all..no more...

My heart become free

So calm...

And when I back from Sabah

I see him and talk much...

And I noticed that I can accept all this

The feeling slowly go...

Actually the love feeling not totally remove from my heart

But it's starts moving...moved

But I know people can talk what they want

About me and him

But only me and God know what I really feel

Actually the feeling not easy to let go

Not easy to clear from my heart

But it was the best I can do

To avoid him, I'm not so sure...I cant!

But slowly to remove the feeling...I can try...!

I must!!!

But what the people around me keep telling me

And I also noticed it

"Semakin menjauhi, semakin dekat dia pada saya"

But I stick my heart

To let go the love feeling

But not let go from him as friend

Because I cant totally lost him...I cant..!

After a few days I back from Sabah

I'm so confused

Confuse with my heart, my feeling

Hurmmm.... :(

Tuhanku...berikan aku petunjuk dan hidayahMu...bantulah aku dalam menentukan arah tuju kehidupan aku...berikan aku ketetapan iman, kekuatan semangat dan kecekalan hati dalam menempuh segala ujianMu ini...Amin...