~ AFTER 1 WEEK...??? ~

Yes!!!

After one week, I felt so down

I'm became more sensitive

I'm became more touching

Easy to crying...

Termenung-menung...alahai...

Since when I started fall in love with him, I dont know...

Since when I started take care everything about him, I also dont know...

What I only know, his not for me at all...

And I only can keep my feeling in deep of my heart...

I cant lie my heart...

Its the facts...

Every time I miss him...

Every second I think about him...

Every things he did to me (badly or nicely), I can accept...

Actually, He treats me nicely...

But I feel sorry to him...

Since the time I know he has a special girlfriend...

I cant to face him as usual...

I cant to treats him like before...

I dont want to do like this but 'terpaksa'..

Not because he has special girlfriend but my heart feel so down...

Sometimes I just think, why I can fall in love with him??

Why he???

Because of his nicely treats to me...

And because I not choose somebody regarding their background...

I love him because their own...

I know he noticed it..my changes...

My mood when with him...

My treats when I with him...

Everything change...garang? marah? 

Mood terumbang-ambing...so sad...

I feel so sorry...

I tried hard to do as usual...

Please give me some space to recover back my sadness heart...

I know U cant love me but please allow me to love U...

Not for a longer time but only for a second...

It's enough for me, even it's so hard to let U go...

But I pray for Ur happiness with her...

It's only 1 week...for the other day, week, month...

I hope I can let him go 'dengan rela'...

And I can be a good friend to him...as usual...

I really miss all the time with him like before...

Saya rindu dia...betul-betul rindu...